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Handling depresion&new life.
Saturday 5 December 2015 | 10:08 | 0 cupcake(s)
Assalamualaikum. Dude, im back after a quite long hiatus. not so hiatus bcs im still active on twitter and whatsapp. Lepas 8 bulan menghilang, aku datang balik. cari balik blog yg dah lama berhabuk ni, well the land where i spill out my complicated feelings, earn money and get to know more friends tho. mestilah rindu. as everyone knows, bukan mudah nak bangun lepas dah jatuh yang teruk. sakit weh, sumpah sakit. 2 bulan aku struggle, tapi result aku macam aku tak pernah study. sakit weh sakit lagi lagi bila fikir my parents' feeling. God, forgive me and give me strength to at least smile and laugh as usual

Tapi, aku positive thinking jela weh mungkin ni bukan rezeki aku. memang susah nak terima failure kalau kau tak pernah jatuh selama hidup kau. i've been there too before, so keep smiling and start a new life weh. first day bila dapat tahu result math aku, aku mcm speechless, macam lose half of my life. sumpah weh menggigil mcm orang  takde blood. okay aku cuba terima hakikat yang aku mmg weak when it comes to math. Second day, dapat tahu semua result. only 2A out of 8 subjects weh kau bayangkan? macam mana aku rasa masetu. dunia aku gelap mcm aku dah give up sangat sangat. rasa dah tak sanggup nak face the reality.

Sejak haritu, yes aku berubah. berubah yang amat sangat. aku tak makan, minum nor talking. i lose myself. life aku masetu cuma solat, menangis. tu je weh. rasa nak end up dengan suicide but yah takkan sebab exam je aku nak go that far kan. alhamdulillah Allah still avoid aku from doing that such stupid thing. tapi memang sakit weh nak terima kenyataan. And satu hari, aku rasa dah tak larat langsung nak bangun. kepala semua sakit mcm nak pecah. tambah lagi dengan stress and idk why i can't stop thinking and regret of my results phew. and as expected, parents aku bwk gi klinik. and yes ofc im having tension headache. semuanya suruh tenang. kurangkan stress and whasoever lah. weh, if i can ask myself to do so than i'll do it right away dude tak payah tunggu kau suruh. but i cant and  I JUST CANT. the failure hits me like crazy.

And alhamdulillah i got to forget abt it from day to day. ye memang susah but you'll success once you've tried a lot. macam macam aku buat nak kembalikan diri jadi normal. memang sakit, aku mcm orang murung je masetu. kau tak rasa weh, kau takkan rasa. and sekarang, aku rasa i should stop crying over the past things. aku anggap je rezeki aku setakat tu aje. "kau kene bangun", yeah. semua kawan aku ckp mcm tu. and im trying to refresh my brain and start a new life. aku kene lupakan benda yg dah lepas. yes, aku kena jugak. and that's how my life's going. mmg banyak life obstacle yg aku kene go through tahun ni. but nvm, it'll strengthen my heart yeh just adopt the good side of them and stay strong myself lets try on your pt3 atira :') 

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